How I Got Into Painting

A Little Depressing Story

Many years ago, I felt suicidal; I didn’t have any passions. I thought my goal in life was to find work and get employed by someone. All this time, they were the wrong thoughts. I started having a mental illness in 2013 up until the end of 2018 and finally, in 2019, I’m more recovered than I expected. That mental illness led me to see visions and images. I assume some were fake and some were real. The ones I knew were real were visions of God and hearing him speak. His voice is almost like the sound of the wind whispering through the waters. When God appeared, he was mostly bright lights.

My creativity stems from having seen bright lights and lights being similar to light rays, which explains why I keep trying to paint light rays perfectly because most of the time during my illness, light rays would come through the window shining at me. I knew it was God. When I look up to the sky, I see clouds and the light rays would immediately shine down like it was acknowledging me.

My mental illness caused me to want to stay in bed all the time and I gave up on life. When I felt suicidal, I didn’t care about self-care. 

The depressing days are now over and I took upon a new passion or an old passion that I didn’t care to develop until now. It’s art!

Many times I feel discouraged not knowing how to paint a lot of subjects. Light rays, shading color, and blending are my main focus.

My first buyer received my painting yesterday and she seemed to like it. She motivates me to work hard and focus on my new passion. My dream is to work towards being a full-time self-employed artist.

How I Got Into Painting

1) I saw images during my mental illness. I thought it would be fun if I turned it into art. (Most people wouldn’t want to hear a depressing story like mines, so I rarely spoke of it anymore. I only mention it if someone asks me. I put my past away, but I got to say, I love what I saw! I talk about it, not because I dwell in the past. I just love how God heals a sick person.)

2) I saw Tornado Thien on YouTube. She spoke about being a beginner, but she loves painting and has been doing it since 2012. She sold over sixty paintings on Etsy! She also shows the steps in some of her past sales!

3) My first artwork got sold, which motivates me to continue. I painted the first one for fun, trying to turn my vision into an image on the canvas. My first buyer saw my work on this blog. When my first painting got sold, it was the happiest day of my life; someone liked my work.